What is going on?

This is the question I have to ask myself.

I have been very busy ever since early June in work and in dealing with personal financial problems.

Aside: I have to admit that somehow English has become my medium of deep thinking and true expression.

I have article about science and Stephen Hawking in draft for the whole month without further edition. I have people to take care. I have grieve to settle. I have worries that cannot be easily put down.

I continue job seeking without any replies while everyone doubts my determination. Try walk in my shoes before ANY comments, please. I have been expected to 'act like a man' or 'act like a leader' while I have been forced to go my own way in some circumstances.

Yes, I did watch the World Cup the month before but did not have late night getup.

I cannot have good sleep for long time.

I have been fed up by the whole Christian scenario (more specific, the US Evangelicals' and Fundamentals' circle while I do not care about those liberals that much) and become an outsider in terms of large-scale religious activities. I cannot properly express my disgust about abuse of prayer in some new branch of Christian church filled up by marketing and sales people and all those that see "feeling as the one and only one Almighty criterion" b/s. (sorry for my perjudice).

After throwing all these rubbish, I still have to take care of some late night works - for example, tonight I still have to work out alternative plan for a branch office next Monday after a server problem this evening.